Staveness history
Jamie
Going off to college was frightening...new place, new friends, new classes, new roommate! Not unlike the other freshman my stomach turned as we drove up to my dorm. My mom, dad, and I began unloading all of my stuff turning into 1,000 trips up and down those stairs. I met my roommate which turned out to be not that pleasant. Oh no I didn't click with my roommate will I have any friends? Eric, my boyfriend for the first 6 months, lived 4 hours away.
Walking down the hall I noticed this girl looked familiar. The previous summer my best friend and I experienced Hidden Acres camp, she was one of the camp counselors. Finally, a familiar face. She invited me to a bible study at some ladies house named Tracie Bremner. Up for anything to meet people I agreed to go with her. I really enjoyed Tracie even though she had 15 years on me. Encouragement and love flowed from her.
We met at the union occasionally, my freshman and sophomore year of college. The summer before my junior year everything changed. I worked in Okoboji, IA for the summer and God started doing a work in my heart. He impressed on my heart He wanted a deeper relationship with me. I took a look at my life, boyfriends and friends consumed my life not God. The difficult process began, breaking up with my boyfriend. By mid-summer the loneliness set in. One beautiful and starry night I walked on the road behind our house, praying.
"God, I know what I'm feeling is nothing what Jesus felt when his disciples deserted him at the cross but I'm lonely."
He said, "Jamie, you may be lonely but you are not along."
An encounter with the living God! Wow!
I sat on our dock watching the sunset not to many nights later and said, "God, here am I send me."
I returned to school in the fall and the change that took place in my life that summer through reading God's word and praying and just hanging out with Him made old relationships hard to slip back into. Bitter sweet describes that next semester. One day Tracie and I sat in the parking lot of McDonalds as I lamented about my loneliness and Tracie with tears in her eyes said, "Jamie, if I was 15 years younger I'd hang out with you."
Sounds cheesy but I felt so loved. That right there is why the excitement boils over in me to get to Penn State. My desire to be a Tracie Bremener, to love girls and point them to Christ, on campus is uncontainable. And to be a part of a girl stepping into eternity gives me goose bumps.
A year and a half after the McDonald's incident Tracie sat with me in the union talking about life and God. She rummaged through her bag and put a large envelope on the table. "I want you to consider Edge Corps."
OK, couldn't hurt but in the back of my mind I thought there is no way I'm going to get all this paperwork done by Tuesday, it's Friday for goodness sake. Coming together perfectly I handed in my application, interviewed, and signed up for one of the best adventures of my life. Getting ready for Edge Corps I remembered my prayer, "Here am I send me."
This was only part one.
I spent the next two years at Florida State with the Navigators loving girls and pointing them to Christ.
When the two years ended my passion did not. During the two years full-time ministry wasn't my title I lead bible studies and discipled women.
Eric became the youth pastor at Meriden E-Free Church and full-time work at my dad's office and full time ministry filled my life. As described above it filled joy in our hearts.
God is once again answering my prayer - here am I send me.
Next stop in the missionary journey - Penn State.